Somethings gotta give, RIGHT?! How can we love our bodies when we look in the mirror and see something so far from what WE THINK is beautiful? Seriously, HOW? When I began my journey just 2 months ago it became apparent I wasn't looking in the mirror at my body! I was avoiding it entirely! I was content with not knowing! THEN when I started seeing how my unhealthy eating, and the excess weight I was carrying was not only slowing me down, it was weighing me down! I fought with depression, struggled to find even the smallest bit of motivation to do everyday tasks! I have TWO SMALL BOYS! How is that fair to them? How is it fair to whine and cry to my husband, weigh HIM DOWN, when I AM THE ONE -CHOOSING- to live this way!
So- I made a choice. I CHOOSE to change! I am teaching myself how to eat! I am pushing myself that LITTLE BIT HARDER, I am GETTING OFF MY RUMP and I am FINDING MY INNER AWESOME! MY STRENGTH! MY SELF!!!!
Today I met with some Awesome mommies who are also trying to find their healthier self! It came up that it can be CRUSHING to look in the mirror at our bodies! ...
To this I have this to say,
It is hard! IT IS HARD! It is HARD to get up and GET GOING when we JUST want to stay in BED, when we just have NO TIME, when we have BABIES and struggle to remember to brush our TEETH let alone think of ourselves throughout the day!
Is it not harder to know you are sacrificing memories, moments of joy, and your own happiness? How can it be healthy to look at yourself and imediately HATE who you are?
Its not worth it! YOU ARE WORTH MORE THAN THAT!
If the worth of EVERY SOUL is more than DIAMONDS OR RUBIES, then how can we be so cruel to ourselves?
Here is what I propose-- Your mind is in the WRONG PLACE if you cannot be happy with who you are at ANY SIZE or SHAPE!!
So after fighting with this concept of negative body image leading to my ultimate failure I have come to find peace in this: I am a BEAUTIFUL WOMAN! I am a STRONG WOMAN! I don't give myself the CREDIT I DESERVE! -- If I can find confidence in THIS body the way it is right NOW, I can ACHIEVE MY GOALS! I can do what ever I put my mind to!
Confidence = HOT!
If I can make THIS LOOK HOT, just wait 'till I am HEALTHY!!!!
Find your Mantra! Tell it yourself as many times as you need to, until you start to believe it!
** The hardest part is getting started!!-- Mom**
I am 2 months in and I am JUST NOW (in the past week or 2) finding JOY in my workouts! I am feeling my muscles WAKE UP and I am JUST starting to feel GOOD! Give it time to make these habits, to find the joy!
Oh and it should be known, I have only lost 3 lbs, but my legs are leaner and stronger, my buns are getting tighter, and I can do things now, like ACTUAL SIT UPS, PUSH UPS, JOGGING! I am getting STRONGER!
Don't give up! You deserve MORE than an unhealthy lifestyle! YOU DESERVE TO LOVE YOURSELF!
Diamonds and Rubies! ;)
Xoxo,
Jess
I needed to hear this like you wouldn't believe today. Thank you.
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