Its possible you may have noticed my lack of blogging activity! THIS I am shamed to admit is because I seem to have lost my spark! That flame of excitement seems to have flickered down to embers, licking up oxygen to barely stay alight! Well I have my excuses, as we all usually do, some seem relevant, but none worth this consequence! Now it seems I must start over to build up the fire inside me! I have to FIND MY MOTIVATION and get my BUTT BACK IN GEAR! I am just trying to figure out how! How? How…? HOW? How did I find it in the first place?
Well, I started on the inside.
Why do I WANT to make a life change? WHY do I want to give up my addiction to food? Why do I want to sever my connection of food to my emotion?
... Because they are killing me.
... They are holding me back.
... The consequential weight I wear makes me hate my greatest gift from God, my body!
... I may not have health issues now, but they WILL COME if I do not make these changes NOW!
... The eminent health issues could significantly shorten my lifespan, thus limiting my time here on earth with my family!
... The list could go on and on, I am sure.
Most importantly, I am limiting myself. I am hurting myself. I am hurting my family, by not taking care of my body! I am setting a poor example to my children, teaching bad habits, thus hurting their future!
My mother has struggled with this same battle, my grandmother, aunts, great aunts, cousins, ect. This is either a genetic battle or we are just ALL teaching and learning the same BAD HABITS!
This cycle has to stop with me.
For my family!
So what am I going to do about it?
This week I make a goal to set small goals!
First, I am going to either work out with a video, do 20-30 mins HIT training, or go outside for a long walk with the boys!
I will try to tackle one new goal each week!
These goals will follow in suit!
1. Eat 1 portion on a saucer plate!
2. Drink 60 - 90 oz of water every day!
3. Watch 1 BIGGEST LOSER episode every week!
4. Search - Find - Post pics or motivational quotes to my blog!
5. Keep a regular journal! -- Blog often!
These all sound simple enough, but I must remember to go one step at a time! If I overwhelm myself I am much less likely to be successful!
OH AND -- HUGE GOAL I CAN'T FORGET -- I want to see a chonselor on base! I had set to do that in the beginning aand then somehow just stopped going and got side tracked from my goal of GETTING HELP to GET MY HEAD STRAIGHT!
There are people trained to help us overcome these issues! These ADDICTIONS! I am going to get help!!
Healthy INSIDE and OUT! I have to start on the inside!
SO-- HERE WE GO AGAIN! :)
The hardest part is getting started! We cannot afford to wait! -- Best wishes to you all still working your butts OFF! And for the strugglers-- You are not alone! Find your motivation! You can do it!
Stronger. Healthier. Inside and Out!!
Xoxo,
Jess
Jess
ReplyDeleteI have shared the same struggle most of my life. The first thirty five I barely ate. I thought all I had to offer was my physical appearance.
Thankfully that has transformed. I am so much more than that, we all are. I admire your energy to overcome what is holding you back.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.
a return to love - marianne williamson
I love this and her book is really helping me transform my body image.
much love to you and your family. xoxo