How to get over our moments (or weeks) of struggle!

Its possible you may have noticed my lack of blogging activity! THIS I am shamed to admit is because I seem to have lost my spark! That flame of excitement seems to have flickered down to embers, licking up oxygen to barely stay alight! Well I have my excuses, as we all usually do, some seem relevant, but none worth this consequence! Now it seems I must start over to build up the fire inside me! I have to FIND MY MOTIVATION and get my BUTT BACK IN GEAR! I am just trying to figure out how! How? How…? HOW? How did I find it in the first place?

Well, I started on the inside.

Why do I WANT to make a life change? WHY do I want to give up my addiction to food? Why do I want to sever my connection of food to my emotion?

... Because they are killing me.

... They are holding me back.

... The consequential weight I wear makes me hate my greatest gift from God, my body!

... I may not have health issues now, but they WILL COME if I do not make these changes NOW!

... The eminent health issues could significantly shorten my lifespan, thus limiting my time here on earth with my family!

... The list could go on and on, I am sure.

Most importantly, I am limiting myself. I am hurting myself. I am hurting my family, by not taking care of my body! I am setting a poor example to my children, teaching bad habits, thus hurting their future!

My mother has struggled with this same battle, my grandmother, aunts, great aunts, cousins, ect. This is either a genetic battle or we are just ALL teaching and learning the same BAD HABITS!



This cycle has to stop with me.



For my family!

So what am I going to do about it?

This week I make a goal to set small goals!

First, I am going to either work out with a video, do 20-30 mins HIT training, or go outside for a long walk with the boys!

I will try to tackle one new goal each week!

These goals will follow in suit!

1. Eat 1 portion on a saucer plate!

2. Drink 60 - 90 oz of water every day!

3. Watch 1 BIGGEST LOSER episode every week!

4. Search - Find - Post pics or motivational quotes to my blog!

5. Keep a regular journal! -- Blog often!

These all sound simple enough, but I must remember to go one step at a time! If I overwhelm myself I am much less likely to be successful!

OH AND -- HUGE GOAL I CAN'T FORGET -- I want to see a chonselor on base! I had set to do that in the beginning aand then somehow just stopped going and got side tracked from my goal of GETTING HELP to GET MY HEAD STRAIGHT!

There are people trained to help us overcome these issues! These ADDICTIONS! I am going to get help!!

Healthy INSIDE and OUT! I have to start on the inside!

SO-- HERE WE GO AGAIN! :)

The hardest part is getting started! We cannot afford to wait! -- Best wishes to you all still working your butts OFF! And for the strugglers-- You are not alone! Find your motivation! You can do it!

Stronger. Healthier. Inside and Out!!

Xoxo,

Jess

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Hate your body??--Negative BODY IMAGE could mean FAILURE TO SUCCEED!

Somethings gotta give, RIGHT?! How can we love our bodies when we look in the mirror and see something so far from what WE THINK is beautiful? Seriously, HOW? When I began my journey just 2 months ago it became apparent I wasn't looking in the mirror at my body! I was avoiding it entirely! I was content with not knowing! THEN when I started seeing how my unhealthy eating, and the excess weight I was carrying was not only slowing me down, it was weighing me down! I fought with depression, struggled to find even the smallest bit of motivation to do everyday tasks! I have TWO SMALL BOYS! How is that fair to them? How is it fair to whine and cry to my husband, weigh HIM DOWN, when I AM THE ONE -CHOOSING- to live this way!

So- I made a choice. I CHOOSE to change! I am teaching myself how to eat! I am pushing myself that LITTLE BIT HARDER, I am GETTING OFF MY RUMP and I am FINDING MY INNER AWESOME! MY STRENGTH! MY SELF!!!!

Today I met with some Awesome mommies who are also trying to find their healthier self! It came up that it can be CRUSHING to look in the mirror at our bodies! ...

To this I have this to say,

It is hard! IT IS HARD! It is HARD to get up and GET GOING when we JUST want to stay in BED, when we just have NO TIME, when we have BABIES and struggle to remember to brush our TEETH let alone think of ourselves throughout the day!

Is it not harder to know you are sacrificing memories, moments of joy, and your own happiness? How can it be healthy to look at yourself and imediately HATE who you are?

Its not worth it! YOU ARE WORTH MORE THAN THAT!

If the worth of EVERY SOUL is more than DIAMONDS OR RUBIES, then how can we be so cruel to ourselves?

Here is what I propose-- Your mind is in the WRONG PLACE if you cannot be happy with who you are at ANY SIZE or SHAPE!!

So after fighting with this concept of negative body image leading to my ultimate failure I have come to find peace in this: I am a BEAUTIFUL WOMAN! I am a STRONG WOMAN! I don't give myself the CREDIT I DESERVE! -- If I can find confidence in THIS body the way it is right NOW, I can ACHIEVE MY GOALS! I can do what ever I put my mind to!

Confidence = HOT!

If I can make THIS LOOK HOT, just wait 'till I am HEALTHY!!!!

Find your Mantra! Tell it yourself as many times as you need to, until you start to believe it!

** The hardest part is getting started!!-- Mom**

I am 2 months in and I am JUST NOW (in the past week or 2) finding JOY in my workouts! I am feeling my muscles WAKE UP and I am JUST starting to feel GOOD! Give it time to make these habits, to find the joy!

Oh and it should be known, I have only lost 3 lbs, but my legs are leaner and stronger, my buns are getting tighter, and I can do things now, like ACTUAL SIT UPS, PUSH UPS, JOGGING! I am getting STRONGER!

Don't give up! You deserve MORE than an unhealthy lifestyle! YOU DESERVE TO LOVE YOURSELF!

Diamonds and Rubies! ;)

Xoxo,

Jess

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FINALLY--- I can look FORWARD to WORKING OUT!

To all of you who might be just starting your search for a healthier you, here is a tip: DON'T GIVE UP @ 2 WEEKS!

I have been working out nearly every day for over a month, and believe it or not I had days where I had absolutely NO desire to get off my big butt and WORK OUT! Too tired, too frustrated, to LAZY!

That didn't stop me though! **Thank you STEPHANIE!
THIS is why I say you NEED to find a buddy if at all possible!

Wednesday I had a GREAT workout that I TRULY enjoyed, and it was the first since the very beginning! :) That's not to say I didn't get a great burst of energy after a work out! I did! I got my heart PUMPING as BEST I could EVERY TIME, with a few exceptions of "lighter" days! I sometimes got to the point of tingling in my toes and NOSE! I would have to walk off the rest of the work out for the sake of not falling over!

I didn't push that hard EVERY day, but I did it about once a week, past the point of what I THOUGHT I could do! I let my BUDDY PUSH ME!

Yesterday I was so looking FORWARD to the gym just to find I could not go. Then as the day passed I decided I would work out before bed!

O MAN it felt so good! I was able to do SIT UPS, the REAL kind, for the first time in so long! Since before Jude was born over 2 1/2 years ago! I am now able to do about 10 REAL pushups! Still not nearly as well, or as much as I would like, but I feel like my muscles are waking up! They are THERE, DORMANT and FINALLY COMING BACK!

THE STRENGTH IS RETURNING!!

DON'T GIVE UP in those first weeks! Seriously, I had NO desire, and yet now as I feel my muscles pushing harder than they have in so long, as I feel my LEGS and ARMS getting FIRMER and FIRMER by the DAY, I can't help but thing how glad I am that I pushed passed those days to this-- ENJOYING my WORKOUTS! ;)

YAY! Here is to getting healthy!

OH and one more thing--- I totally got my first compliment that they can see a difference in me! A healthy glow! :) That's good enough for me! I am changing and its showing! AWESOME!

xoxox,
Jess

Getting Excited about Fruits and Veggies!

 CELEBRATE NATURES BEST!

 Keeping my food O' Natural! :)

"O MY GOSH, MOM! I am SO EXCITED about EATING HEALTHY!!"

Healthy. Homemade. Delicious.

BODY RESTORATION CLASS Tuition GIVAWAY!

<p>Bravegirlsclub.com is giving away 10 tuitions for the Body Restoration Class! For what I can tell it seems a great community and I am hoping I get lucky and win tuition! If not I am thinking I will still try to take the class! Looks Awesome!

Here is my comment, sums up some things:

Wow! What a fantastic opportunity! I love the other comments left and know this class would be wonderful for so many! I personally am 23 and the mother of 2 small boys! I am just under morbidly obese and afraid that my unhealty adiction to food has become a huge drain on myself and my family! I was abused as a child and through my youth and am now on constant gaurd against depression! I have been for the past 2 months finding my inner AWESOME, as my blog is called, :) and I am making life changes already to improve my health starting on the INSIDE and working my way OUT! I know change doesn't happen over night and I'm grateful for the technology at my fingertips to supply me with info and motivation! This class would be a great teacher for me! Here is hoping I get lucky! ;) Happy new year everyone and best luck in your resolutions!

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Weight loss Plan?

I was asked what is my weight loss plan? I thought my response worth remembering! :)

I don't really have a set plan per se! More approprietly I am taking small steps, have small goals set and as I overcome each I will be one step closer to a healthier me! :) I am destressing, decluttering, getting active, working out every day, eating healthier, making changes! Its all steps toward real life changes! No magic diet! I'm not going to obsess over food/calories! I'm finding healthy replacements for my snacks and favorite foods and doing lots of research on smart eating habits, work out tips, and I am BLOGGING! :) Its helping me to get my thinking straight! I'm starting from the inside out! :)